The Come Down: I’m Sick of Getting Trashed
In the weeks before my car accident, I was drinking – a lot. I was miserable, heart-broken and anxious all the time.
Alcohol no longer gave me any real pleasure. It was no longer about enjoying the buzz or the moment; all I wanted to do was to escape my miserable life. By that point, drinking everyday was a habit, not something that actually brought me any peace.
Damn the Blinders
After I received a DUI, the veil lifted from my eyes. I saw the negative effect wine consumption had on my life. I wasn’t in a happy state of mind, satisfied with my career or a positive force in any of my friends’ lives. No, I had gradually drifted into a very dark place – one where I felt sorry for myself and nursed the “poor me” attitude. Alcohol, I thought, was helping me get through that difficult phase of my life.
Once I saw things clearly, however, I realized drinking did everything but help me through difficult times.
Sober Wins Out
Since quitting, not once have I wanted to get drunk. I haven’t missed the taste or how I regularly lost control over my actions. I don’t miss waking up the next morning, cringing with humiliation over what I did or said the night before. And I definitely don’t miss those hangovers that made me hate life for days afterward.
Instead, I focus on how good I feel, how bright my skin looks and how well I sleep. I enjoy the natural high I get from exercising and the genuine contentedness I feel after spending time with friends and family. But most importantly, I feel grateful that I am where I am now and not where I was seven years ago: drinking alone in my apartment.
Often times, the feeling of finally being sick of the high is a signal that it’s time to get sober. If you’re experiencing this, don’t ignore it – seek help right away.
Additional Reading: Get Motivated: 5 Tools for Building a Sober Life
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